Leaving this unlocked for now, because I mentioned that I'd be writing this on twitter, and I don't think a lot of my feed is friended here.
So, back in September, when I started my senior seminar for my literature major, we were told from the get go to start thinking of topics for our thesis and presentation that would be most of our grade. Originally, I was planning on doing something with modern romantic heroine, mainly because I wanted to talk about The Time Traveler's Wife
. Then, somewhere between that and actually submitting topics, I read The Hunger Games
. And I think I was maybe halfway through the first book when I realized just how much there was to deal with and talk about and over analyze there. I ended up doing it on adult subtext in YA with Hunger Games as my model, but as I've read the books a ridiculous amount of times and had a lot of meta discussions with people, I've realized there was a lot of shit I would have loved to cover. So I'm gonna tl;dr now.
Essentially, I was thinking about Katniss Everdeen (for the part of my flist that hasn't read them, she's the protagonist and the entire book is from her POV) and how she's exactly the kind of strong female character that SHOULD be in YA fiction. And I agree. And she's actually one of few of that type that I 100% love. Actually, she's one of the few main characters in GENERAL I can easily call one of my favorites. (She's probably my second favorite, for what it's worth, but Why I Love Finnick Odair is a different teal deer for another time and partially irrelevant.) While a lot of this just because I personally find her likeable and relateable (ask zorabet
exactly how much. she might cry, tho.), both her character and her dynamics with other characters make her the type of female character I'd have wanted to read as a young teenager and that I want young teenage girls to be reading.
If I could go back in time and rewrite that paper, I'd do a comparison of Katniss and other female leads, track trends and flaws and successes. But I can't, so I'm just going to spill my (totally not researched thoughts and entirely too long) thoughts here. I'm looking at Bella Swan from Twilight
, Calla Tor from Nightshade
, and Katniss, because they're all female first person POVs in YA urban fantasy/dystopia, with love triangles of varying importance. And, to varying levels of success, I think they're all supposed to reach to their young reader. So...it goes without saying, I think, spoilers from all three below the cut. Also, for the sake of being upfront: bias wise, Katniss is by far my favorite and I'm not really a fan of Bella or Calla at all, but I think a lot of what I'm going to say is WHY I don't like them, not the other way around.( spoilers for nightshade, twilight, and the hunger games. also so much text omg.Collapse )
tl;dr katniss everdeen is better than you tralala.
Minor internal breakdown yesterday set off by my losing my student card (which is how we use meal plans and basically the only way to do anything on campus) and the spring 2010 course booklet going up. I'm on the first sign up day, finally have enough credits to where I'm the first slot on the last day. Unfortunately all my classes are going to suck. Putting off American Lit because apparently my AP lit credit might count for that requirement. Tentatively taking Media Law and Ethics, Web Publishing (my advisor teaches this, and he kind of sucks, so it's going to be frustrating), Grammar (I've put off taking a language course long enough and I wanted to take linguistics, but it's not being offered), and Intermediate Fiction. ...I have four classes left for each major, and then my senior sems. two semesters and a winter term. What.
Excited about fiction because I have this huge ass original project I've been kind of mulling over and kind of scared to start tackling, and this will start pushing me into actually working on it. Little scared, because I could take Contemporary Writers with a teacher I know and absolutely adore (Cassie Kircher might be my favorite person ever on the planet and I almost cried when she told me I had talent for prose, not going to lie), but it's a course that surveys poetry, nonfiction, and fiction, and I really want to have free reign to work on my fiction, that's what I want to write. Even if I don't know the professor and I'm apparently Vonnegut weird. (Also, I want my security blanket of Alyse, the most fabulous TA ever who was all "YOU ARE INSANE. I LOVE IT. SHOW ME MORE" which makes me feel so good.)
Really kind of wanted to take Intro to Music Business but I have no room. Think it's probably more something I'd like in theory, but only have fun with about half of, like my internship. Think of going to grad school for something related to music/arts management, like the PR or marketing sides? NYU has a music business grad program I was salivated over. Do want to work at Sony BMG, do. want.
I want to be an entertainment journalist, I want to also write my stories, and I want to actually do stuff in the entertainment business. I don't know what, exactly, but I know I love music more than anything and theatre more than most things, and I just have a lot of things I want to do and don't see why I can't do them all. Just the farther I go along the more my dreams and goals change and I can't see that ever not being the case. I can't see myself getting to a point and going "okay, happy enough now."
Also, Culture of Rock was the best academic decision I've ever made. I spent my 8 am watching videos of Jefferson Airplane and talking about the counterculture. And also, God I love the Beatles so much more from Revolver on, does that make me a bad person for being really glad they got on drugs?
I feel like my entire life is in this nice quiet lull right now where I'm on good terms with my roommate and Ted and I are in a comfortable state of friendship and it's sunny outside, but then tomorrow I have my first midterm and then it's probably going to blow up in my face and my roommate will reveal she actually IS the devil child from Scarlet Letter, Glee will turn out to be a figment of my imagination, and I'll wake up to it being last January.
Next show to close: 13, on January 4th.
Fuck even Broadway depresses me now.
I have to do an assignment for class on Twitter, so I made an account (cme622, if anyone else has one.) and added BWW.com's feed to it and that was the first thing I saw.
I don't even know the show, I just love JRB. And I'm still depressed about Spring Awakening. If anyone was wondering. (Oh, if anyone can see the show in December, Matt Doyle will be going on as Melchior for the last time somewhere in that. It'll be phenomenal.)
In unrelated news, it snowed a little today and everyone I know's facebook status is either about snow, Twilight, or both.
...speaking of Twilight, RPatz and KStew are both so much cooler than the characters they play.
Okay. New Bare forums. Yet again, because the site hasn't been up for a few days now, and it'll probably come back up, but we moved it to a site that tends to be more reliable, anyways. (And we're saving back ups of everything now, heh, I'm just glad I still had all my Bare100 prompts saved.)http://z6.invisionfree.com/Barerpg/index.php?act=idx
There's not much there yet, but we're rebuilding it, and hopefully in the next couple of days it'll get active again. Plus, look at how pretty it is! That shiny banner! *drools* Go join and such...even if you don't do RPGs, we still do other fandomish things (like fics and fanart and such) and start the occasional analytical discussion, heh.
Mmkay, now that I've gotten the pimping out of my system.
Just...I need to rant. This is going to sound incredibly shallow and teenaged, and I hate that, but I need to just let it out somewhere...I tried saying this all to my mom earlier and I think she took as Tina's low self esteem getting lower rather than just a general frustration.
I feel like I'm surrounded by perfect girls with perfect hair and flawless skin who some how manage to show up in first period looking like they just finished a photo shoot for Teen Vogue. And then I look at myself in the mirror with my frizzy not quite curly but definitely not straight mess that I call my hair, and my acne that won't go away because I'm too lazy to actually use skin care products on a regular basis. (I'm trying with Proactiv, I really am! It's worked for me before, but like I said, I'm so lazy.) ( And I just kind of feel like Nadia in a room full of Ivys.Collapse )
- Music:When You Fly, Easter Rising concert